Day to Day Dad

Poor Dad, he just can't keep from crying. He doesn't want to cry so he is mad when he does, which is all the time. Everyday he says that he is getting better, but cries as he says it. Today we went to the Cemetary and looked at Mom's grave site. It looks like it has been there for years not weeks. The gravel is all smoothed over and there is a small metal sign at the head of the grave. Dad says he isn't ready to think about a headstone, but when he does, his name will not be on it. He thinks it is morbid to put your name on a headstone when you are still alive. So...he wants to put Mom's name on one side and leave the other side blank. I think that is just fine. When I drove up to his house this morning, he was trying to mow the lawn. He couldn't get the mower started. We checked everything out and it seemed just fine, so I pulled the cord and it started right up. When I was finished mowing he said, "I'm going to go buy a John Deere riding mower today".

If life gives you lemons, make lemonade, or if you can't start the mower, buy a John Deere. He is doing well taking care of himself, doing his laundry and filling the dishwasher, but he is very lonely and emotional. He knows this will pass and says that he knows he will be with her again, but that it doesn't help him right now. Give him a call.